Wednesday, July 20, 2005
First Sip Of Honey II
To ‘maximize’ my summer job salary, I brought my lunch every day. I treasured my lunch box much as I found myself smart to save money this way and kind of loving to myself by making food every day. “Oops!” said a bitch, who pulled my lunch box to the floor by her ass. Not even a sorry. She left me with her evil smile. The supervisor I talked about had now become a bitch with accumulation of jealousy. I didn’t smile the whole morning. I wanted to cry. As an introvert and shy me, that’s most I would do.
“What’s happened?” finally he asked like a light of hope and warmth. He suggested having lunch together and not being sad for that. I listened. I was too busy looking at his face and listening to his voice than finishing my lunch. He told me he wanted to smoke and then we stayed at the backyard of the boutique. He was drinking a can of soda and asked if I wanna try. I said okay and I officially got that ‘indirect kiss’ with the help of that can. Blushed!
If there’s one thing he taught me through, that would be not over-concerning how others feel towards our bond, at the end of the day, only he and I matter. Don’t waste every precious & sweet second of ours.
I had to attend my graduation dinner after work but he wanted me to hang out with him for a while. We were in the street and he said “I dun feel well…….I feel so cold……take my hand.” I did and he grasped my hand in the STREET! C’mon! Will people watch and feel bad? Will we be arrested for being gay? He smiled and our hands were glued together until we said goodbye.
We didn’t start officially but blind can see we were much more than friends. He was really brave and he would never told me “I wanna hold your hands so much in the street but I’m so afraid that people will feel sick of us…I feel so bad…’ because we did hold hands, hug and share the foods anywhere just like any pair of lovers. He opened my eyes in the world of love. Be brave in love as that’s the only way to make it true.
He showed me the places he liked to eat and he told the staffs there I was his new lover. I know there’re loads of critics and discrimination against gay people but we never got that. He was a true romantic person. There must be something sweet-to-melt happened every time we met. He never yelled at me or I should say he was ever tender and caring to me.
Our relationship was like a romantic movie’s but part of his life still remained mysterious. I was too shy to call him and I was always afraid of disturbing others (I still am!). He would tell me his stuffs and I wouldn’t be such nosy to ask anything. I told my friends about our relationship and they all said he must be gay, but I will say ‘Hey, we haven’t started officially, nobody talked about the start in this bond……” Who was I kidding? I still didn’t believe love would happen on me and that person was such a sweet, tender and romantic guy. He treated me like his pearl. Nobody had treated me like this before.
Shop Sales don’t have fixed lunch hour so there’ll be people serving us whenever we do shopping. Today, he and I cannot have lunch together. It was raining when he was having lunch and I was worrying at the shop. Did he carry an umbrella? Please dun catch cold, please……Lord, please protect him. He came back laughing and dashing around with a GIRL. From their body language, they were lovers. What the……? Why? What was happening? The girl stared at me before she left. He and I didn’t talk after that scene as that was a really busy day. Even we did, I was too embarrassed to ask what was happening. I was such an innocent boy. I can imagine how easy to take advantage of a boy like me that time! I was not sure if he’s taking advantage of me but I was so confused of the whole thing. From what I saw on TV and heard from friends. Lovers were loyal and totally exclusive for each other but things seem not working like that this time. How come?
“What’s happened?” finally he asked like a light of hope and warmth. He suggested having lunch together and not being sad for that. I listened. I was too busy looking at his face and listening to his voice than finishing my lunch. He told me he wanted to smoke and then we stayed at the backyard of the boutique. He was drinking a can of soda and asked if I wanna try. I said okay and I officially got that ‘indirect kiss’ with the help of that can. Blushed!
If there’s one thing he taught me through, that would be not over-concerning how others feel towards our bond, at the end of the day, only he and I matter. Don’t waste every precious & sweet second of ours.
I had to attend my graduation dinner after work but he wanted me to hang out with him for a while. We were in the street and he said “I dun feel well…….I feel so cold……take my hand.” I did and he grasped my hand in the STREET! C’mon! Will people watch and feel bad? Will we be arrested for being gay? He smiled and our hands were glued together until we said goodbye.
We didn’t start officially but blind can see we were much more than friends. He was really brave and he would never told me “I wanna hold your hands so much in the street but I’m so afraid that people will feel sick of us…I feel so bad…’ because we did hold hands, hug and share the foods anywhere just like any pair of lovers. He opened my eyes in the world of love. Be brave in love as that’s the only way to make it true.
He showed me the places he liked to eat and he told the staffs there I was his new lover. I know there’re loads of critics and discrimination against gay people but we never got that. He was a true romantic person. There must be something sweet-to-melt happened every time we met. He never yelled at me or I should say he was ever tender and caring to me.
Our relationship was like a romantic movie’s but part of his life still remained mysterious. I was too shy to call him and I was always afraid of disturbing others (I still am!). He would tell me his stuffs and I wouldn’t be such nosy to ask anything. I told my friends about our relationship and they all said he must be gay, but I will say ‘Hey, we haven’t started officially, nobody talked about the start in this bond……” Who was I kidding? I still didn’t believe love would happen on me and that person was such a sweet, tender and romantic guy. He treated me like his pearl. Nobody had treated me like this before.
Shop Sales don’t have fixed lunch hour so there’ll be people serving us whenever we do shopping. Today, he and I cannot have lunch together. It was raining when he was having lunch and I was worrying at the shop. Did he carry an umbrella? Please dun catch cold, please……Lord, please protect him. He came back laughing and dashing around with a GIRL. From their body language, they were lovers. What the……? Why? What was happening? The girl stared at me before she left. He and I didn’t talk after that scene as that was a really busy day. Even we did, I was too embarrassed to ask what was happening. I was such an innocent boy. I can imagine how easy to take advantage of a boy like me that time! I was not sure if he’s taking advantage of me but I was so confused of the whole thing. From what I saw on TV and heard from friends. Lovers were loyal and totally exclusive for each other but things seem not working like that this time. How come?
// posted by BeautyInTheBeast @ 2:02 AM 
